Trying to patch things up...
Hey Willie,
Since you haven't responded I take it you have just given up. I don't really know what happened, all I know is my feelings were hurt, and frankly I'm confused. I know you are trying to be more positive, I get that. You can obviously be whomever you choose to be, as can I. What I don't get is one day we are walking thru the mall and we were BOTH talking about people, hair, that drag queen, whatever...then a few days later you don't want to hear any negativity from me ever again. I am going to be me, no matter what. If I'm too toxic for you to be around, then I'm sorry. The past few days I've gotten up, done housework, showered, and frankly, I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself. Made healthy dinners, not just easy shit that has so much salt I'm surprised we aren't all dead. Maybe that's it, maybe it's the prozac, although I doubt it's working already! Anyway, I left the last email open to you, and if I don't hear back from you after this one I'll never bother you again. I just think it would be a shame to throw away 18 years, but if that's what has to happen, I'll deal with it. It has been brought to my attention (not just by you, but by 2 other people that used to be in my life) just in the past 2 days that sometimes I say things that are offensive. Now, when I said them I didn't realize it, so it wasn't malicious or intended to hurt, but apparently it ended up that way. I do think you are correct about certain things, but I also think that as my friend you could've been more constructive with your criticism. Not shifting blame, I'm sorry, but I don't think it's ALL me. Anyway, I'm rambling...you know all this. I just wanted to extend a hand and see if you are willing to take it, if not, I'll be around when or if you are in the future.
Megan
Since you haven't responded I take it you have just given up. I don't really know what happened, all I know is my feelings were hurt, and frankly I'm confused. I know you are trying to be more positive, I get that. You can obviously be whomever you choose to be, as can I. What I don't get is one day we are walking thru the mall and we were BOTH talking about people, hair, that drag queen, whatever...then a few days later you don't want to hear any negativity from me ever again. I am going to be me, no matter what. If I'm too toxic for you to be around, then I'm sorry. The past few days I've gotten up, done housework, showered, and frankly, I'm feeling pretty darn good about myself. Made healthy dinners, not just easy shit that has so much salt I'm surprised we aren't all dead. Maybe that's it, maybe it's the prozac, although I doubt it's working already! Anyway, I left the last email open to you, and if I don't hear back from you after this one I'll never bother you again. I just think it would be a shame to throw away 18 years, but if that's what has to happen, I'll deal with it. It has been brought to my attention (not just by you, but by 2 other people that used to be in my life) just in the past 2 days that sometimes I say things that are offensive. Now, when I said them I didn't realize it, so it wasn't malicious or intended to hurt, but apparently it ended up that way. I do think you are correct about certain things, but I also think that as my friend you could've been more constructive with your criticism. Not shifting blame, I'm sorry, but I don't think it's ALL me. Anyway, I'm rambling...you know all this. I just wanted to extend a hand and see if you are willing to take it, if not, I'll be around when or if you are in the future.
Megan
posted by The Mayor @11/16/2005 08:53:00 PM
1 Comments:
I thought your letter to Dimebag was beautifully written and well thought out. When he comes around again, make sure you tell him that I named him Dimebag!!! He'll love it! Always, always, always your bud....The Queen
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