Life Sucks.
Divorce is not a fun thing. Even if it's the second time around. What's worse is, I actually was in love with this husband.
I never thought we would get to this point, I thought I would be 75 and hanging out together at the nursing home. Sadly, that is not the case.
Things have gotten ugly, we've said some mean things to each other. I'm sure he doesn't mean them, I know I don't, but when it gets to the point where you are doing nothing but screaming on the phone, things come out of your mouth that you swore you would never say to someone you loved.
I still love him.
I think he still loves me.
But it's past the point of fixing I think.
I'm sad.
I'm drinking alot.
Welcome to my depressing fucking life.
I never thought we would get to this point, I thought I would be 75 and hanging out together at the nursing home. Sadly, that is not the case.
Things have gotten ugly, we've said some mean things to each other. I'm sure he doesn't mean them, I know I don't, but when it gets to the point where you are doing nothing but screaming on the phone, things come out of your mouth that you swore you would never say to someone you loved.
I still love him.
I think he still loves me.
But it's past the point of fixing I think.
I'm sad.
I'm drinking alot.
Welcome to my depressing fucking life.
posted by The Mayor @8/09/2006 09:44:00 PM
18 Comments:
A couple things...
I know you both still love eachother...and that gives me hope.
I think you were the best things to ever happen to eachother. (I'm sure the boys think the same.)
Maybe a little time and space would help the wounds heal. Everyone says mean stuff in the heat of battle.
The drinking scares me...you know.
Time to call Nick?
(Lord knows you never call me back!) :^)
I'm sorry to hear that!! *hug*
Oooooh. Shitty girlfriend.
Sometimes things can just spin completely out of control. Maybe you guys need a mediator. A counsellor. It's worth a shot. Divorce sucks ass. And if you guys still love each other, this doesn't have to happen.
I'll be thinking about you. Don't drink your face off. I'm the same way, and it's only going to fuel the fire babe.
Dear Mayor,
If you're saying shitty things to your husband, you must be feeling very hurt and betrayed. Best friends are supposed to stick by you even when you hate yourself and treat everyone like crap. They are supposed to know you for who you really are. If they want to leave your ass, it must mean you've been in a crappy hateful mood for too long. There is no victory in saying mean things to him. Start being honest while it still has a chance of mattering. Stop "punching people figuatively in the face", tell him you are a sad, lonely asshole and beg for forgiveness. Lather, rinse, repeat. Then, do better. What hurts more, admitting you are a jerk, or never sharing a bed, home, life with him again?
I will pray for you. Sometimes swallowing your pride and making yourself really vulnerable is the best way. Try counseling.
Mayor,
Don't know the situation, so my advice would suck. Best wishes to you in getting it sorted out, and finding what you're looking for. Remember, life is what you make it.
Since I'm like John and don't know the whole situation, I'll just say this: Usually things work out the way they should. Unless you just give up. You still love him - FIGHT FOR HIM!
At least if you loose you know you gave all you had.
I meant lose not loose. (always have problems with those two words)
hope you are well. Thinking of you.
Sorry you're sad. Divorce can be fun, though. Go here: http://straightuptruth.blogspot.com/2006/08/un-wedding-part-2-joel-gets-divorced.html
What with all the fucking spambots digging your post!?
I heard yesterday The Mayor was still alive and things were a little bit sunnier in Fist City...but that's just a rumor. You didn't hear it for me!
FUCK YOU SANDRA WHITE!
I was wondering what happened to you, Mayor. Hope it's getting better. Hang tough.
I'm sorry things are rough right now. I hope things get better. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!
How goes the job hunt?
Wishing you happy thoughtS!
I think things are looking up for the Mayor..maybe she will start blogging again someday soon. She had a rough patch, but she is a tough cookie. I think she just might be alright!
I'm sorry. I've been there. Got here through Lozo's blog. Am bookmarking this.
When post remain dormant, the spambots attack.
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